left behind

... this was a saved draft from March 4, 2009, that I didn't hit publish for...

Lately it feels as if everyone is moving forward while I am stuck standing still and being left behind. It seems as if everyone has everything I hoped and dreamed up and I am still alone and far behind my dreams.

I know it may seem like they all have it together, and that they have problems of their own like everyone.

It's the fact that my old friends are moving so far ahead and I have nothing to do with it. It's my best friends having children and me not being a part of their lives as much. It's old friends getting married and me watching from afar.

It's the people I never dreamed of settling down, finding love or starting families that find all of that and more... and me single as ever... Not only am I single, but I have to deal with the constant questions about why I am single, when do I plan on getting married or dating - it goes on and on and on.

Although these people question me, it's not like I know the answer to their questions, nor do I care to know the answers at times. I guess you could say I am sitting on the fence with this one... I don't know what to expect, I don't know what to think. I hope that one day I will figure it out, or move on. One thing I do think I know for certain is that I don't plan on finding anyone here that fits the bill...

So for now ladies and gentlement you just have to wait tight to see what the rest of the story will look like...