I forgot how refreshing it is to catch up with close friends. Even though essentially (in a perfect world) close friends shouldn't need to catch up because they're always there...right?! Well sometimes we get caught up in our busy lives and don't always have the time too keep up-to-date, even with the best of intentions.

It's nice to put everything on hold, and just kick back and catch up with friends. It's nice to know what they've been up to, how their family is doing, how their children are growing and just visit.

There's a reason they are close friends, there are reasons we have stayed in touch and those reasons are far more important than we often let on.

I have four very close "girl" friends and a handful of others close behind. My four close friends are scattered across Alberta and BC. Sometimes it really bites, because I just want to have a cup of coffee or sit down to dinner and rehash old memories, just have a girls night, or just be able to see the girls...

At the same time, it's a blessing to know that I am lucky enough to have close friends, that would drop anything to help me, and that I know I would drop everything for. They have shared in some epic and monumental moments in my life, and I hope that we never part ways.

Tonight I had the opportunity to help a friend work through a sticky situation. I won't name names, and I won't go into details. But said friend has quite the prediciment (sp?!) on her hands, and don't hold the answers... only she does. What I did was asked her questions to figure out what she wanted, and then gave her ideas on how to come to a solution for her situation. It pains me that she sat on her problem for weeks because she knew I was happier than I had been in a long time and didn't want to disrupt that. Needless to say it didn't take a lot of convincing to remind her that my happiness will never be sacrificed for a friend. BUT that I find my friends to be a the top of my priorities. I reminded her that she is far more important than a couple minutes of happiness, and that if I am truely happy, it will return after I help figure out a solution. We had a heart-to-heart... just like the old days... It made me miss her, but made me grateful once again to have such an amazing person in my life...

You ladies are simply amazing, and I would be truely lost without the set of you!

... Imabeliever ...

I honestly thought all the love stricken people of the world were crazy and on crack. I had given up hope that true love existed and that the possibility of finding love was even do-able. And the ones who said that they knew from the beginning that they had found 'the one' I thought were seriously cracked out... until it happened to me.
I can honestly say I am in the same boat as them, and quite frankly it has got to be one large boat because there are many of us aboard.
They always told me it would happen when I least expected it, and that is beyond true... I was not expecting to fall for the person I was, I was not expecting to fall at all... I was perfectly fine with what I had created for myself. I would be single for life, I would be an elementary school teacher and I would adopt children.
Well now that plan has been scrapped and I have found the individual I want to spend the rest of my life with, I want to marry said individual, I want to start a family with him and I want to grow old with him.
I don't know how it happened, but it did and it is honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Will I finish school, one day I hope, will it be in the four years like I had planned, maybe not.
I used to think I was a happy person, but nothing can compare to the happiness he has brought into my life. He has given me hope and has opened up a new chapter in my life, a happy one.
The physical distance between us is huge but we talk so often and he knows me so well that it doesn't feel so bad.
So the believers are not as cracked out as I had once believed, as I am now one of them. It's a great group to belong to and I am looking forward to a life-long membership to said group.
I didn't know what love was, I had never told anyone I had loved them (other than family) and all of the 'I love yous' I had received were due to copious amounts of alcohol, with no real meaning behind them just the sole intention of seeking sex.
Now I know what it is like to truly be loved and to love. It is simply the most amazing feeling in the world. It was overwhelming at first to think that I had such immense feelings for a single individual, and that the feelings were reciprocated; but now I have become accustomed to the feeling and I enjoy it.
I never thought hearing a person’s voice could bring such joy to a day or that simply waking up next to a person could make the start to every day enjoyable.
I am a believer, I enjoy being a believer and I pray to every higher being out there that I can remain a believer for the remainder of my days.

Loneliness strikes again..

So I moved to Red Deer 25 days ago... and I enjoy the city, I really do... for the most part. At the same time I am rather lonely. At SAIT I made friends with my classmates very quickly and by this time had already found my group of friends in rez... so far I have some acquaintances, and I enjoy the company of my roommate and visiting with the ladies at work... but no friends to call up to hang out or to rescue me when I lock my keys in the house...
Here I am alone, very alone... I guess there are positives to that - less to distract me from homework or work... but it gets kind of redundent.
I have my close friends scattered about the province, Kaarina in BC and of course Jordan in Winnipeg... but it makes the bad days worse to know I don't have anyone to run to here.
I can always pick up the phone and call, but that will never match up to grabbing a coffee or drink and venting with someone who cares.
I guess I haven't really had the time or the chances to go out and make friends because I have been working insane hours at work and then school and homeowrk and studying... it's eating up what potential I have for a social life!