Monday, October 19, 2009

... one thing ...

If you could gurantee one thing to the ones you love what would it be??? If you could secure one thing in your life what would it be?? Would it be a material possesion, money, love or something completely random?
We got on a similar topic of coverstaion tonight at work and it made me think... which of course leads to Adrianne over-thinking, panicking, and worrying.
If I could promise one thing to the ones I love and prevent one thing from happening to them and myself... it would be that they will never be alone. Sometimes I feel helpless and hopeless because there is only so much I can do as one person. But I wish there were more I could do. I wish I could be there for my mom when she needs someone, but I have come to the realization that there's only so much I can do, and that I have done far more than the majority of people my age. I wish I could be there for my friends when things aren't going right, but often times I can't physcially be there because of the distance, money issues and other committments. I wish I could be there for my friends when they're having a bad day.
I know I have an amazing set of friends, but they're so spread out that sometimes it feels like I am alone... don't freak out people I know I am not. I give more than I should and don't take as much as I should... and sometimes worry that it will wind me up alone. I know - not likely but crazier shit has happened.
Most of all, I am worried about those I love, I don't want my mom to feel like she is alone... I want to be there for her... but I wish some others would step up and take responsibility and worry, or help or show they care.
I don't want my friends to feel like their alone, but there's only so much I can do from where I am at.
I worry too much, I really do. But I only want things to go right.
If I could do one thing, I would do my damnedest to ensure that noone ever felt alone... I really would.

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