... part one ....

Some of you might have already read this one, I wrote it almost three years ago after going out for dinner with two of my closest friends at the time. Background on the story - the cook at the restaurant, was like 18 and heartbroken because she was just dumped and thought he was the one... our server (the cook's cousin) thought she would ask us for help making the cook realize that love doesn't exist... and that spurred quite the debate not only at our table but amongst the staff (we were the only table in the restaurant at the time)...

Why am I posting this!? I am sooooo glad you asked!! I am posting this here NOW, because in the next couple of days I will post the second part to it, which no one has read.... probably because I JUST wrote it.... or am in the process of writing it!!

Anyway, here it is... enjoy!!!

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Does true love exist, or is it simply a figment of our imaginations?

Over dinner the other evening three believers began to debate the extent of true love. We all believed, but we all believe different things. How does one find true love, or does true love find you? Will it one day just fall in your lap, or must you seek to find this thing we call true love? How hard is it neccessary to fight in order to maintain this love? More importantly - how do you know that you are in true love, and the the person you are in love with is the one - your true love? Do we only get one true love, or are there more chances out there incase we don't realize the first one was meant to be? How does one convince themselves to break down the barriers they have errected to prevent being hurt - yet again to hopefully experience true love?

So many questions revolving around one simple thing. This debate we started soon managed to engulph all employees at the small resteraunt the trio of us frequent often. I think we managed to recusitate some glimmer of hope in the 18 year old cook, that maybe true love exists, and we just have to be more patient and careful with who we chose.

I guess I am just going on a rant because a lot of people close to me, or old friends who were once close have manged to find that someone. How do you know that the someone you found is the right someone? How do I know that I haven't overlooked my someone, or pushed him aside? I am a pusher, I freak out and push people away - but now I realize it was because I am scared of losing them all while forcing myself to lose them before I can get attached.

I am used to the male figures in my life leaving - be it by death, bordom, or unexplainable reasons; I have to get over that and try to change. Easier said than done, but for the chance of finding the true love everyone is talking about it would be worth it.

If you are one of the ones who have found your true love, don't stop fighting for that person - keep it up.