... a bit of a rollercoaster ride...

I hate hate hate rollercoasters, but that's how my today has played out. The smallest things would upset me today, and I have absolutely no reasoning to why. But do I seriously need a reason to have an off day?? I mean it would make things a lot easier to understand...

I spent the morning catching up on neglected e-mails.Then I made banana chocolate chip pancakes... And after that I started on my lasagna... which meant a trip to the grocery store... which led to two grocery stores because I couldn't find a couple of ingredients... Once I had the meat and sauce mixed and ready to start building the lasagna - I realized I had forgotten to buy the darned noodles... which meant another trip to the grocery store. I was certainly frustrated, especially with myself. Who forgets the darned noodles?! It seems like a small petty thing now, but at the time I felt stupid and angry with myself. That's how most of my day went. And it rubbed off onto the people I intereacted with today. Which I apologize for. It's fine, I can have an off day, I can be in a bitchy mood, I can be grouchy - but when I transfer that onto other people it's gone too far.

It took me almost all day to get out of my funk, and realize that - YES I did spill nearly HALF of my caramel macchiato down the front of my brand new cute blue sweater in the middle of Chapters, and YES I did lose my bank card between Winners and Andrea's car... and YES I did say some stupid things that were taken in the wrong context to a handful of people today.... BUT it was a nice day, I accomplished a LOT. I made stellar pancakes, and an amazing lasagna and waiting for my mini meatloaves to come out of the oven... oooh and they're out - and look kind of cute, and taste grrreat!!

It took Andrea laughing at me, with coffee running down my sweater to realize that life isn't as horrible as I was making it out to be.

I received two random facebook messages today from people I haven't heard from in a while. One a distant relative. The other used to date one of my brother's friends... and we've become friends. They were pick me ups, I guess sometimes it's hard to realize that people care, even if they aren't in your close circle of friends. These messages made me re-realize (now I am making words up!!) that people care. Not that I ever doubted people, but it's nice to know people care.

I have a lot of good things going for me right now, more than I have ever had going for me in a long long LONG time. I have some of the most amazing friends I have ever had (including the core group that have always stuck by me); my family is ok - in relatively good health (not really, but it could be worse... we're all still kicking!); I love love love this semester (even I do hate math - it is kind of interesting... don't say a word Jordan!!!!); I am making new friends (even after I said I wouldn't); I enjoy my job, the people I work with and the youth (even if I often find myself overwhelmed by the situations the youth face on a daily basis)  and soon - very soon I won't be thousands of kilometers away from Jordan (the best of all!!).

... and to top it off I got back at Andrea by laughing at her... she is wearing a 'rubber finger' so she can flip through pages faster... she was super excited about it... hmmm... anyone think we're a good match as roommates?!

So yes, today was a rollercoaster ride... most of it was pretty low, but now I'm back at the top, and I plan on staying up there.