... speechless ...

Sometimes there isn't much you can say or do to change a situation or to help out. Even though that's all you want to do.

I ran into my neighbour from back home today, I've known her since she was like 8. She's almost like a little sister to me. Anyway I ran into her in the library. She looked like she needed a hug, so without asking I gave her one. And then asked how she was, she replied I'm ok, to which I said Hun, you're lying. What's up?! (thinking maybe her and her bf had broken up or something trivial) not prepared for her to tell me one of her closest friends (whom I have also known since he was like in kindergarten) had passed away after a long 5 or 6 year battle with cancer. I have her more hugs and told her that he had fought a hard fight but wasn't hurting anymore and that I was here if she needed me.
I have never lost a close friend, I've only lost one peer. I've lost nearly every man that's been close to me (father, grandpa, great uncles, uncles) and a grandpa and honorary grandparents. But that's about it. I don't even think anyone from my grad class has passed. Which is a good thing.
But for the first time, I can't offer advice or word of wisdoms.

He was a great kid, one of the smartest people I know, talented too. He was going places. And his life was cut short. Way too short. And his older brother has spent his life addicted to drugs and alcohol not a good plan for a diabetic. Its messed up how life works sometimes.

And for once I'm at a loss for words, it doesn't happen often.